I don't know how January creeps up on me. Being self employed a lot of my business ventures begin anew in January. The new teaching schedules come out for my hospital classes, as well as for yoga and my Lamaze classes too.
This January is full of new beginnings and I am excited. I have been teaching a fantastic group of women on Monday nights for the city. Many of them were due to give birth around Christmas time so I won't be seeing them again. This means that next Monday when the new series starts I will have a whole new group of pregnant women, maybe some old faces too. I truly love my Monday evening prenatal yoga class and am sad each time there is a break.
As well I have been hired by another yoga studio to teach prenatal yoga on Sunday mornings. For this job I am very nervous. The owner hired me based on my reputation. Yikes! I love teaching yoga to pregnant women and really feel as if I have found my niche. I think that this love shines through in my teachings and my practice with them. I'm always a bit nervous when someone tells me that my reputation is great. I want to live up to that expectation. The expectation I have of myself is usually much higher than expected. I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing. I want to do a good job, no matter what I am doing. Part of the excitement with this one class a week is that there may be room for me to take on more as my children get older. I will always be practicing yoga and hope to be teaching for a very long time as well. One of my goals for the future is to teach yoga full time, once my kids are in school.
My Childbirth Education classes are not filling up this year and this scares me a bit. I have slowly been letting go of my teaching responsibilities. The Lamaze classes that I was running myself were put on hold for several months as both my partner and I were having health issues. The hospital classes I was teaching were too much at night and there was not a lot available on the week-ends, so they were dwindling. The director at the hospital contacted me recently to say my next series may be canceled due to low registration and I fear the same thing may happen with my Lamaze classes. At least with Lamaze I am able to offer private sessions instead so it is not a total loss. I keep wondering if this is a sign that I shouldn't be doing it anymore?
I have been finding myself thinking more and more about Childbirth Education and whether or not I should continue doing it. I LOVE it and I know I am very good at it. It is the unpredictability of the classes that I find hard. At this point in my life I need to know how my schedule is going to look. My own children have activities that they like to do and I hate to say no and then find out they could have done it. It can be frustrating. They are very time consuming and I miss a lot of time with my family in order to teach. There are so many other reasons as well, that I'm not sure I have time or space for right now.
Is this another issue of me letting go and not being able to. Is the right thing to do looking me in the face, but me not being able to see it? Only time will tell I suppose. I honestly wish I had a crystal ball that could tell me where I would be in a year or two. What will happen if I take ro
Jennifer is an RMT, long time yoga practitioner and teacher. Follow her musings as an RMT, yoga teacher, prenatal educator and mother of three.